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D:

i guess i'm at the point in my life where i'm feeling all neglected, ignored and/or like no-one-would-listen-to-you-anymore sorta thing. yeah, it's perhaps the feeling of being old. like what you can relate to other people is your glory days. no idea why i'm feeling all that shitty, as there are people who still talk to me. i think what i need is attention, but not that 'normal' kinda of attention you get when you call out to your friends. but a speeeeciiiaal one.

i think i need someone to care for me ): yeah i know it's pathetic and all.. but i'm just saying the way it is. i think it's the emotional kind of care, not your regular 'ouch! dude, you ok?' or 'you're having a flu.. lemme get you some honey' and definitely not 'what?'

i guess if i were to picture me in a place that reflects the way i feel, i guess it'd be me walking alone in some deserted place, at night. oh and it's very windy. probably a beach, or on the bow of a cruise ship.. or something similar. you get my drift.
man.. so lonely and miserable D:

come to think of it, i'm not sure whether it's 'want' or 'need' that's appropriete.
i think it's 'need', cos it feels as though you need water when you're thirsty
but i feel it may be 'want' as though you have cravings for.. say chocolates or smth
though this 'want' may be so strong that it turned into 'need'
but.. i don't really want it too! i don't know how to handle a relationship! it'll be one more thing on my mind. but this lack of 'special attention' is also thing on my mind.. oh shyte :l

ah well.. hope i get over this don't-want, want thing.

:l


ps: i finally got my pink ic and i look uber cute in there. srsly. i'm cute in it. round, nice eyes, small mouth with a little smile.. expression rather composed..
O_o
did i just describe a pretty girl? *blush*
shyte