Im starting to doubt whether my infatuation for her is gone. My mind is starting wander whether whatever she did or said was for real or not, and i get worried over these things not worth thinking about.
Yesterday i aptly asked her whether she watched hunger games yet, she replied almost immediately. Then i asked whether she wanna watch with me or not, and it took her a day to reply after several prompts! Which in the end was a no, but i was ok with that. Im suspecting that she doesnt like to reject people by giving false hopes of a 'next time' to keep a person 'happy'. It's also like one moment she's there, and the next moment her phone got lost in outer space.
It wasnt like this a month ago. About a month ago, i asked her briefly whether was she allowed to go out with guys one on one. That was my question only. And she asked me whether i wanted to go out with her! About a month ago, she would share with me her life. Now it's like she totally ignores me. What? Is it me? Is there something wrong with me? Is there someone else? Shi min! Please tell me. Help me understand the situation, then maybe i'll learn to care less. It's like turning someone on and leaving the person. You need to do it properly by turning them off, then you leave! I meant nothing of sexual reference.
She also told me on whatsapp that during the period when she briefly broke up with her bf, guys flocked her and suddenly treat her very nicely, all with an intent. And after a while they stopped talking cos the 'excitement' faded away and she thought it normal. She also said she would keep a safe distance so as to not send a wrong signal after the guy has confessed.
I think it's totally happening to me now. Ok, first of all i'm only interested in her, i dont like her yet. Secondly, i STAYED when i knew she had a bf, and she got even further from me when they broke up. What does that mean?!
Ok la, i would give the occasional teasing hints and hit-ons, but srsly. Seriously, a friend before anything else.
I need a serious talk with her.
Seriously!
I think i'm becoming more of a woman than i know it. Zzz
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