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although there are only three tests this week, but i feel like there's hardly any space to breathe.. had one today and resulted in me skipping yesterday's training.

skipping training felt awfully uncomfortable! there they are having fun stretching and kicking and stuff whereas i'm stuck at home forced to memorise material human brains aren't meant to handle; they're for lifeless, systematic robots of monotony. it also means a i've wasted a day that might help me get a breakthrough for any moves i've been working on. like a dbtwist2split.. haha jk! but i could better my btwists though. coach zy said smth about my right leg bending and torso bent, making it ugly, but i'm finding the difference in feel between the nice and the ugly. so.. i guess it means video-or-i-dunno-what-i'm-dong-or-not-doing time.

oh yeah, friday's and saturday's training! i'm making a habit of not blogging after every training, going through detail that is the same everytime anyway. friday's training was quite slack for me as keith didn't come and coach zy was sick. so all i could do was just practice btwists.. some more. saturday was more intense, though focus was on the nationals competitors. couldn't go all out on keith as he was still sick a little, but i guess having to practice is better than nth! during stretching too, coach told us to get our chests down to the ground as we did side splits. i was like woah! O_O when i did it. the masochist in me enjoyed the pain i was in, and also the glory of being able to get my chest down. ever since that day i decided to force my side splits down, there has been much progress and i swear i can feel it go lower each time i do it.

on sunday! my thighs were freaking SORE. hey, i had three days in a row practice btwists and the prerequiste A LOT okay! and i could barely touch my toes. but i kinda like the pain on the under side of the thighs when you flick your leg out while walking. i did that a lot and wee! boy was it fun! yet pain, but fun!
on that day, my family and i met my 4th aunt at goodwood park hotel and we had a day of hanging out. went to big O's to have dinner and i had..
STEAK! YES STEAK! A BLOODY MED-RARE STEAK YUMM THE BLOOD!! but srsly, it was RAWR-OH-SO-DELISH! >:D i had the plate cleaned up with my palate. :p
damn i'm craving for another. why? the blood? what i'm hungry! :O for steak! :D
i feel so animalistic now.. i have that feeling of the whole piece of meat in my mouth and i'm clenching my teeth around it as mushroom sauce and blood drip from it..! STEAKKKKKKKKKK RAWRRR


today was a long day. the test was.. horrific. lol. yeah.
the day started with GEMs and today was about love and relations in parties.
they say 'opposite attracts', well other than gender(duh), personality-wise as well.
sanguines would go with melancholics and cholerics would go with phlegmatics. cus people would *tend* to find the other party to complement them. i guess that's why they always say their spouse is their 'other half'. hmm.. that's deep.
hey i just noticed sanguine doesn't have an 'ic' in it haha.
anyway, when you have san-san, both would fight for spotlight
cho-cho, both would fight for leadership
mel-mel, both would emo and consult each other until it becomes even worse (that's what my teach said lul)
and phleg-phleg would wait for each other to break the ice, so before they get engaged, they would have died of old age lolol.

and i wonder about me. i'm pretty sanguine when it comes to training. phlegmatic when i'm with friends, sometimes i turn choleric if everyone becomes the phlegmatics by waiting for one another to decide where to eat etc. melancholic.. well i've pretty much phased out of that. i Was that in sec sch so it's no more mel for me. except maybe when i do reports and such, i strive for perfection to the last tense.

wonder what my 'other half' might be like.. hmm. or is she even there? like in a 1000-piece jigsaw, when you first open it, probability of you taking pieces A and B and having them join up perfectly is about 1/250 for a center piece and 1/333.33 for an edge piece. oh well. hmm deep stuff eh?



i kinda detest people who won't take 'no' for an answer, especially people whom you've just met or aren't exactly FRIENDS with.
the SP navigators president happened today. some 3 weeks ago he approached me with a friend to share Fellowship and i was well hmm ok listen listen, since i'm Christian myself i would do my conscience no good to reject him. and then now, he's asking me to join him and fellows every week for lunch and idk.. i just gotta be there. he asked me again this week and after plenty of smses of why i can't go and stuff, he still said 'blahblahblah see you soon tmr!'. -.- as he's a guy whom i dunno that well yet, i decided to cool down and patiently, VERY PATIENTLY tell him 'i really can't meet you guys'. i intended to leave out the word 'guys' cos i meant only him, but decided against it after all, in case he sense my true intention of a personal rejection.

man imagined if i just told him straightaway what was on my mind.
then he would say i'm an asshole, but look who's made me the asshole being such an annoying prick -____-

anyway, it's settled in a very professional and matured manner. :)




i really don't dig why lectures/tutorials gotta be like.. 6hours consecutive! seriously they expect us to absorb that much or do well at all with such an information attack? singapore is trying to turn her citizens to organic robots instead of having.. PEOPLE at all! we Have a life, you know? agggghhhhhhhh!! i guess the only real people are those who loaf around all day, *insert stereotypical mindset of school dropout here*. you know what i mean la, not in the bad way. i envy them. not in the sarcastic way also
and then those people who can do well (they're probably robots) get decent jobs and the sub-standard ones get sub-standard jobs.
well, but afterall, to a country
People = productivity
a country is basically a giant factory to make money and have the machines replace their old ones. a country wants to increase its GDP so that its citizens get better standards of living and quality of life right? what is all that when you have to slave and slog all day?! what kind of quality of life is that? we might as well go back to basics, where stuff is simple and carefree. where people are truly happy and truly people. i could go on about this topic with millions of different analogies but you get my point. happiness is NOT about luxury, is NOT about wealth, is NOT about standard of living.. wait, i need a clean place to stay. but it IS about doing what you wanna do and not have *cough*thegovernment*cough* decide your future or smth liddat.

whoever said information is power, screw you!
information is burden!

as i type this, i have mixed feelings as well.. why? i kinda feel that since we are already here, might as well do it. since we have been fed with years of information, and the psychological complexity and cognition, going back to basics would be all 'ughhh'-ish for us and we definitely need complex forms of happiness such as wealth, power.. that kind of things to be 'truly happy' now, with a complex mind.

screw complexity. i wish i were a kitty cat :3 meowmeowmeow!!



wow nice blog post. so random, yet so.. deep. hmm.
Gackt rocks!

PS: as i'm about to off my comp now, i realised the whole time i wasn't online on msn.. haha!