† -=Blood=- //\\// -=Rose=- †

after so many days since the last post, i still feel getting the backflip wasn't much of a big hooha as i thought it'd be. i guess it's really the anticipation that is exciting rather than the actual thing itself, whatever it may be. such as if you've been waiting for so long to get a something that you want, say.. a bike or that pair of skates, you'll be really eager waiting for it, dreaming of all the stuff you'd do with it. then when you bring it home/it comes to your door step. you'd be happy unwrapping it and stuff. and the next day, maybe you'd go like 'meh' or smth. hmm.. it sounds like 'you've just got bored with it'.. hmm maybe that wasn't a really good analogy. ah heck, you get my point.

dunno what's up with me nowadays. i don't feel awesome and all as i used to with the dual broadswords, and learning the routine as i used to be. yeah, same like my backflips. i don't get that hyped up feeling when i think about wushu, or even tricking, as of late. ugh. probably due to the MST? i hope so.

i've seen many dual broadswords videos on youtube, there were quite a few with r/o backflip. quite demoralising, to see someone else has actually done it before you already, and all along you thought it was an original move. (you know people have done it before, but just not THAT many) oh heck, i'll just aim for fulltwist(s) with duals! i've never seen that (yet)!



been quite stressed over this particular MST. there wasn't much stress in the previous MSTs, but people around me (and myself) have been taking it like ESTs. so stressed such as thinking about lying in an open field on a cloudy, breezy day can be so relaxing. on relaxed days, you'd think it'd be wasting time lol


back to study.. but no mood, no mood to even play games. D: