I feel like shit now. Went on a movie date with her. According to plan, i was supposed to be waiting for her. Dad then surprise-asked me to fetch mum from the shop, and she was dilly-dallying and took like so damn long to get the things done. Wound up shi min waited for me for close to an hour.
Secondly, she asked me for glue for her shoe, which i bought almost immediately since it was just in the vicinity. With dad rushing me to fetch mum, i forgot about the glue. Wound up she had to drag her crocodile-mouth shoe everywhere.
Thirdly, she was getting sleepy in the movie. Having had a long day, i understood. No idea what i was doing, i put my arm across her shoulder, allowing her to rest her head on my shoulder so she could sleep hopefully more comfortably. But it offended her instead. Fuck. *epic facepalm* why joel why
Fourthly, i lost our way to the carpark. Wound up walking arnd, and esp with her bad shoe. Damn.
Fifth, i asked a series of weird qns at the end of it. Some to do with her current relationship interest, some about us and the last one about 'thirdly'. Dunno why i have a tendency to steer a good convo into this pitfall. The answers i got from her current love interest wasnt exactly heartbreaking entirely, yet wasnt good news either.
I guess the only ups were
Introducing her to MIB
Getting her chocs
Having a decent convo (i srsly needa drop the excessive slanging. Happens naturally sia. Even with pearlyn)
And that i actually feel comfortable arnd her, none of that awkward thing when the convo stops.
Argh. Fail date. Zzz.. must do better next time! If i get a next time :l
Cant fucking sleep now. Fuck. Ugh. Just wanna turn back time and make it right.
I guess there just isnt chemistry between us. :l just hope that she's happy, that's the only thing i can do for us now. Sigh
Feeling like shit, but not desperate enough to fix smth or shit. Fuck fuck fuck
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